Runner

why do I run from Your feet?...

fearing to trust my hopes and my dreams

Lord that I would truly live wrecklessly!!

Cause I've believed I have no doubt

and found I doubt more than believe

when You said "come to Me"

I thought I should come freed...

are You truly my God?

or is my god truly me?

who do I trust - wholeheartedly?

I've begun to live life fearing hidden blows,

awaiting the arrows

I've been hoping little, fearing much

oh how big I thought I hoped!

oh how much I trusted YOU!!!

so much I thought I knew....

but then You asked...

why do you run from MY feet?

When I told you to -

RUN TO ME!!!!

why do you run from MY feet?

OH BELIEVE ME, I WANT YOU TO KNOW ME,

TRUST ME, FALL INTO ME!!!!

courage, love, and hope....

You whispered to me...

for those three things

I run to Your feet.

rambling at 4:20 am...

I'm not so sure why some things happen in life. Every day is so stinkin' different...at least if you open your eyes and look around you. Through it all the only thing consistent is the Lord's grace and His mercy and His LOVE. I just have to praise Him for that because HE KNOWS how changing I am and how failing I am and how utterly UNWORTHY I am. The funny thing is is that sometimes we get to looking at all these "I am"s and "I am not"s when the one true thing we're supposed to be focusing on is the very ONE who nullifies anything that we are or are not. Only He can make us something - because only the Blacksmith knows for what purpose the tool was created...our Maker is the only one who knows why He created us the way He created us. He knows for what purpose He created our quirks and our talents and even our untalents! I mean I'm pretty much just rambling here...since it IS after 4 am....but I HAVE GOT to believe that God ...that my Creator...knows what He's doing and where I am and where I am to be. Sometimes things seem so unsure and so dark, and the only thing you can see in front of you is your own foot (and even then sometimes that's hard to see!)...but I just pray that no matter how far in front of me I can see that I'll know my Savior's voice and I'll hear His voice calling through the darkness and that I'll follow Him without hesitation. He's the only one who knows the way home. There are other voices, of course, calling us "home"....but the ONLY place I EVER want to be found in is the place in which my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ resides. amen?