I never finished or posted this so I'll post now as written. Sorry that it kind of ends on a depressing note...I promise I didn't intend on that happening...I probably got distracted with something else... So it's been awhile since I've done this thing. It's been a grueling 2 1/2 months, actually. 2 months of married life...2 1/2 months of life post m/c (miscarriage). And today is the official LAST day of the year!!!!! It's been a LONG year. Actually, it's been very short...but so much has happened. I continued to struggle through bouts of depression - going through the cycle of trying to stand, falling, trying to at least crawl, getting a foot on the ground, then stumbling again.... I also met, fell in love with, and married my best friend. We found out we were going to be parents, and then in just 2 months time found out we had lost that baby who we had already fallen so in love with. I am so looking forward to the New Year. How great a reminder of the freshness and newness there is in life with Christ? That everyday is a fresh start!!! I have to be completely honest in saying lately I've just really allowed things to pull me down. It's kind of like when your swimming, and as long as you lay back and relax, you can float. But as soon as someone or something (a burden) is set ontop of you, you cannot help but to tense up. Inevitably, you sink.